I feel that I'm not able to share my feelings up towards anyone these days. Well specifically about my suffering from Fecal Body Odor, or TAMU Type 2, OR even Leaking gas. Life has it ups and downs with lefts and rights I feel that I'm stuck in the up and left. I am not improving up but keeps on going left. There is no up yet . There is no happiness in this problem. However, I'm still thankful for what I have, and the people around me.
The feeling of never changing is terrifying. To some people change is terrifying, however to me it is hope. I hope to one day find a cure. I hope to go out without snarls, or un-acceptance. I hope for a day that I can stroll out and be free. I hope I could escape this every load of burden inside me and become human once again. This freedom is difficult to achieve. I for once attempted so many times, and many has failed.
Having this problem is like having a permanent fart perfume stuck to your skin, hair, breathe, and body. It's an inescapable aroma that is over and under your body. You can't do anything about it but just hope that it will magically go away. I've tried diets and products none to be avail towards me.
Its difficult to go out when people around me think I'm a disgusting human being. Snarling and commenting on how horrible I smell. That it smells so bad it makes them want to barf. Going out is hard, especially when I have family occasions. I feel the need to decline any family meetings due to my insecurities. As I fear of gassing the place with my poison.
Life is hard they say, I say life is F$%#ing hard. But we just have to live to it day by day. I mean there is a reason why we are brought up in this world, and it is to LIVE.
_not an expert writer.
_ There will be plenty of grammar and spelling mistakes ( Beware grammar Nazis)
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